To be of note recently:
I don’t know how I got through my grandma’s birthday, which was December 22.
I don’t know how I got through Jan 1, which is when I found out she had 术后谵妄,
postoperative delirium, and then January 5 and 6th, when I went through some of the darkest portions and days.
In about two weeks from now, a year ago, she would be dead.
I have been completely insane this year.