A couple of things

To be of note recently:

I don’t know how I got through my grandma’s birthday, which was December 22.

I don’t know how I got through Jan 1, which is when I found out she had 术后谵妄,
postoperative delirium, and then January 5 and 6th, when I went through some of the darkest portions and days.

In about two weeks from now, a year ago, she would be dead.

I have been completely insane this year.