Something I never thought I would say, that all of this research led me to believe that my grandma is actually toxic. It also means getting away from all the toxic things that I have been taught. The more work I had done on myself the more I am happy to step away.
Even though there had been a real sense of compassion, and care-giving.
Because it hurt just as much when I realised the double-edged sword of what she was saying: When she told me that my parents had left me (can’t remember which post), she was also hinting at the fact that they had left me with her.